I Am Night, and I Am Made of Stars

He held his hands out on either side of him and turned his face toward the sun, warm rays upon his face. Above, the sky was a cloudless, winter blue, no breath of wind, but just this cold air, clean and crisp upon his skin. He was not hampered by it. He loved winter.

Beneath his feet lay shards of broken glass, twisted wire, jagged rocks and steel, rubble, like a mountain of broken dreams, hapless beginnings and detours. The light there at his feet was the dark obscurity of confusion. Charred hands and fingers grasped feebly at him, but he ignored them, paid little heed. His attention was turned Heavenward at the great blue dome of the sky.

There was only this, only this and nothing more, fullness encompassing his heart, his mind in synchronicity with all living things. He smiled. He didn’t need the warmth of summer to remind him, he could do this at will. His level of focus was like a bead, dead-on, aimed true.

I am night, and I am made of stars. I am day, and I am made of blue.

His fingertips hummed, his eyes glowed. Even his hair seemed a cascade of crisp clear water, glimmering with light. It seemed to him that he was standing at the crux of the universe, as though every living eye shined through him, saw through him. Time ceased to beat. White and stars and light exploding, an ever enfolding, expanding tapestry of the universe, black silk, almost transparent, with no edge, no crease, no ripple or ruffle. It had no seams, but it had all things in it. It had no beginning and no end, like a giant blanket unfurling with no end to unfurl.

Still this, he thought. Keep it in a little box and hold it in your hand. You can see the way it vibrates, hums with energy. Every living thing is in it, and then another box, and every little thing in that, and so on and so on. Blinding, glorious, bursting radiance and warmth. Triumph, victory, and trumpets. Beethoven would be proud, he thought and smiled. Glory in his sound. Vibrant intensity, but stillness, too, quiet like deep space, not even the sound of your breath. Not a thought, not a single hum. Just this. Not a picture, not even a pin drops to shatter this quietude. Space, fullness, emptiness, darkness, and light.

Here, I see only this, and Light moves through me, and there is only Beauty and Truth. I am a staff on a blank page. Write your music on me. I see myself in the sky with wings. Did you judge me for the tears I cried, worse than I did myself? I laugh about it now because I never felt this strong before. Mountains upon mountains I see. The world is my kingdom. Love breathes into your eyes. Now, do you see? I was born for all this romantic poetry. I thought this was for Gods alone. How blind I’ve been in my simplicity.

Armed to the hilt with my pen, I slay every dragon before me.

The horse’s hooves crushed every skull and broken bone, shattering them to dust as you rode. A playground, a battlefield, tempests waging war on the sea. One dimension, then two, then three. Have you ever seen the likes of this? There’s a diamond in you, too. Here, just brush off a bit of this dust, spit-shine and polish that pretty little sucker, and watch you come to life and shine! They can see you from outer space. Here, you are Everything, needing nothing. Your fullness is complete. You stand alone, healed, happy, free, and whole. You’ve been cured of all your wanting. In that moment, Divine Love reached down and touched your face. Now, you have a revolutionary mind. You found it on your own without reaching forward, reaching out. You went against the grain. You conformed only to yourself, you rebel you, with your arms out on either side of you, eyes closed, seeing Everything, feeling Everything with nothing at all left out. The air streamed through you and touched everything, and now you can be a child forever. How does that feel?